But out of the kindness of my heart, I don't state names on this blog.
Anyways.
Not much bothers me.
If something does annoy me then I try to think of a way around it or at least don't let it affect me.
And its quite ironic that in the hour previous I was at Sunday School teaching the kids to keep to themselves, and if anything annoys them that they should turn a blind eye to it..
However...
Something someone said to me really flustered me.
I'm kind of annoyed at this person for other reasons previous but being the person that I am, I don't let it affect our relationship as friends much.
I try to forgive.
Saying C'est la vie.
That's life.
It's really hard to think a couple of years ago, me and this person were the best of friends, but now life has taken us elsewhere.
And now, at times I'm really hurt, but for this person rather than myself.
I feel sad.
I feel bad that I have to bad mouth about it to extinguish my frustration.
I feel sad that they are who they are.
Because beneath it all.
I know who they are.
So many people with so many facades.
I wish they'd take it down and show us all who you really all are.
Why don't you give yourself and us a break and just be who you are.
No need to be nice if you don't want to.
Your only kidding yourself.
Sorry if you were expecting a love story blog.
But this one has been a labour of love coming to an end because I've decided that I can't entertain this person any longer.
I can only be civil and love from a distance.
But other than that, its too much at this moment in time.
PS. I Love You.
2 comments:
Most of the time people feel they cant "be themselves" coz they've experienced that that puts them in a vulnerable position open to risk of being hurt...so, but putting up a barrier & facade, u are protected from anything beyond the superficial.
Which is a rather rubbish way to live coz each individual is unique & has so much to offer but truth is, when u spend most of ur life pretending to be sumin, u eventually forget who u really were!
hi rainbow =) your blogs are interesting, i've recently experienced something similiar and found that yes it is difficult to pretend nothings happened and not be frustrated with it but then again, I feel so much more relaxed by just being myself around them and having faith that one day everything will be back to the way it was - like the good times! =)
might be childish I know, but i'd rather be optimistic than miserable =)
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