Unrequited Love.

How come the most romantic things ever done have been done in movies so when, if you tried to reproduce it, the other half will say; how original? and in the movies, that person doesn't actually want to do those things in real life.

But I got a hold of Love Actually DVD in Christmas and I've actually not watched it up until now and though it think the movie isn't Richard Curtis' best (I prefer Notting Hill), there seems to be a developing trend in the movies that I've seen that he has written. And that is the pivotal scene...

In Notting Hill, the scene in which I believe tells the whole story is the scene where Anna Scott (Julia Roberts) stands in front of the boy, the man that she likes; William Thacker and sells her heart out. Up to this point they dated, comforted her, slept together, he'd had his heart broken because Anna is famous, and her love life is the stuff the papers write about and stuff. But at the end of the day, famous and all that, Anna is still just a girl. Standing in front of a boy. Asking him to love her.

And unfortunately for her, the "daft prick" William rejected her request.....

Though later realises his mistake and a mad dash across the poshest hotels in London, and he asks Anna to reconsider him, eventhough he had originally rejected her. 

Lovely moment, I love the movie.

And in Love Actually, although not pivotal but the one that stands out from all the other scenes is the scene in which Mark (Andrew Lincoln) portrays or a better word/s; declares his feelings to Juliet (Keira Knightley). And unfortunately for him, she is someone that he can't have. Up to this point, Juliet had requested video tapes of her wedding, in which Mark was the groom's best man. Because Mark is best friends with her husband, she had been trying hard to at least be nice to him, and if anything, Mark was being nasty, cold towards her. But his feelings for her weren't known until one day Juliet went round to his for the videotape and when she began to watch it, the contents were just close ups of her. And then the scene in which captured my imagination is the one where he declares his feelings for her in the form of words on a card, and a good few of them along with some funny ones in between. 

He set out "without hope or agenda" to tell her his feelings. And how after it, he has to move on. And that love is actually all around us. So when he had finished, he had walked a few yards from the door and Juliet runs and gives him a kiss.....

However as romantic as the whole thing may be, she did the right thing in fulfilling her marriage and ran back inside.

There he said Enough, enough now. 

He moves on.

A movie, and a short story if it were. Both have a similar theme.... Both about someone who, more times than none, you would love to be with, but their just too far out of reach. 

And if you look at my heading for this entry; Unrequited Love. 

It is the hardest thing.

For you to love someone but not have them love you back... sucks.

And I've not been in that situation many times, but even liking someone very very VERY much, but she just think your just a friend, or your just a wee brother or an older brother to me. It really hurts!!

I can say fortunately I haven't found myself in that situation many times, because for me, if I like someone, I could go on liking them for years and years. Like for example, a girl that I liked during my school years lasted from primary 7 up until S4 maybe.

I guess that was young love, stupid immature. Don't know the basics of love. But funny to look at when reminiscing. 

But giving up hope is the hardest thing to do.

I don't give up that easily with anything. Some say I may be stubborn, and I'd probably agree with them.

Maybe sometimes you gotta realise that when something isn't meant to be...

It isn't meant to be.

And the quicker you know it, the better.

No point in shoving a square peg in a round hole as they say.

I'm sure if something is meant to be, then give it time. It will happen in time.

We all want to be loved.

We all want to love someone.

But sometimes it's not the right time, not the right person...

Nothing ever happens the ways you want it to, especially in love.

I know I've had my fair share of disappointments in this area. 

But each one.

I've let go and I'll try again.....

Don't awaken love until it so desires.

PS. I Love You.

Admitting when your Wrong.

Before I start blogging the perils of wisdom that I normally regurgitate out of me, please note that this entry is in no way directed at anyone, but everyone. I guess there are people in my life that need to hear this more than others, but when you read it, choose to do whatever you like with it. 

I do not intend to offend, hurt or anything else negative.... 

So here goes....

If your reading this from Chinese eyes, you will know the silent treatment your parents give each other right?

And if your nasty, your probably giving the silent treatment to someone right now.

But I'm not sure if silence is always the best way to solve things.

Think, if there was no communication between the Allies and the Germans, will we still be in a World War situation?

And if we all kept quiet about the 'Credit Crunch', would we be out of it? Seems like every new headline, the economy gets worse and worse.

But sometimes I think silence is the best, however it shouldn't mean you sever the communication off completely.

Sometimes when you have hurt someone, and they aren't in the mood to speak to you, maybe its best if you give both yourselves time to digest the event.

Sometimes I think its best to say nothing at all.

Only you will know when its time to speak.

And you will know when its time to listen.

Whenever those times are, make sure these times do happen.

The longer you remain silent, the wounds get larger..

The longer you leave things sorted up, the more dust gathers on it. 

And if you think of dust as being of an amount of weight, and where you store your things is in a plastic bag which you carry about with you everywhere. 

Surgically attached.

That bag will burst at the seams. 

The longer the silence, the longer your pain hurts you.

Why drag it out?

Nothing is solved.

Talk to one another.

Be bold and courageous.

Make the first contact.

Be strong.

Either ways, try live life where you don't take any account of wrongdoings into the next day.

Forgive us our trespasses.

as I forgive those trespass against us.

I hate confrontation.

I hate the silent treatment.

Sort out your indifferencies between one another.

Don't store up anger.

PS. I Love You.

Shit does Happen.

I'll be honest with you, things have sort of troubled me in the past few days, well not troubled but has made me concerned and a bit saddened by it.

Don't want to talk about it here but what gets me through the night is my life morals:

Be a friend to everyone.

But don't expect everyone to be yours.

Don't go to sleep angry at anyone.

Tomorrow is a new day.

I might have to say sorry.

But you will never have to say sorry to me.

Anyways the events of the last night i.e. Comic Relief has refreshed my perspective in life as in how can I complain about things when there is millions of kids out in Africa who have to make a living and sleep in rubbish tips. How can we argue and get annoyed at the smallest of things when there's things like that, that happen. Kids who have spent 13 hours looking through rubbish just to find enough to sell in exchange for a meal, when they were whisked away to a children community centre, they said grace before their dinner. If the tables were turned, do you think we'd be so grateful? I know I won't. I'd be annoyed.

A VT that really got me is one where a widower was separated from her children for 7 years. She had to send her two children to live with relatives because the make shift shack she lived in was dangerous, could harbour diseases and she was HIV positive. I don't know how old her kids were, they were no more than 10, and to lose the years in which your children grow up is and im sure the toughest to lose. To miss your children's development would be too much for me to take, nevermind these people in Africa.

Malaria is a disease that kills so many in almost a blink of an eye, and to know that my five pounds could save someone's life in buying them a mosquito net makes me think what the hell do I spend my money on? Nothing useful anyways. My offering this week will go towards these projects which do their best to help those in need.

Things like these give me a kick in the arse in how I can be so ungrateful at times. If you didn't know, I had one of those (few) days yesterday, didn't tell many if at all. Sometimes I wish I could just walk away from it all. And being as head strong as I am, I would. Trade it all for a life of happiness. And unfortunately I'd have to say if I did, I'd be leaving all of you, everything I have. Because although it brings me happiness, its only momentarily. People say I should be happy cos I seem to have my shit together, I have this and that, and their right, I should be, but if anything, I'm content. But if you know me well, I'd trade all of my life's blessings for the joy that I have in my heart. The things that give me joy.

And unfortunately, I guess it's not my time yet...

In an abrasive mood.

PS. I Love You.

Shite Happens.

Today.

Eff this, eff that.

But on the plus side. Despite the credit crunch cloud we have over us, our nation has some very generous people.

Sighs...

Sometimes I don't really give a shit.

Sometimes its not even my fault.

Sometimes I don't know what it is I've done to deserve it.

Sometimes I don't know how it even happened.

Sometimes I don't know why I even bothered.

PS. I Love You.

The shit writes itself

I'm sure this friend of mine was queuing up at the intelligent line but somehow they closed it when they got to the front.

But this friend had weird tuna for dinner, because they thought it was from a dolphin.

And a tiger is the female mate of the lions.

Being on the earth for so many years, you'd think everyone and anyone who had an education would know that the earth is not flat and its round... like a ball.

And how come if your going down under, it takes forever and a day? (Half of that statement is true) How come they can't go a shorter way? Is there a shorter way?

And why is Africa so poor when its such a big country.....

Figure please folks.

PS. I Love You.